Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Help, please?

I need help. In all manner of ways, but let me just ask for it from one direction first. I need to work out how to protect myself. I have spent a lot of time thinking about things and have come to the conclusion that I am too sensitive and I have no cooking clue about how to fix that. Honestly, I feel rubbed raw by it, like all my nerve endings are exposed and they keep making me really, really sad.

I just want to be one of those people who can turn away from stuff and carry on with life and not feel ripped apart by the cruel things in the world. My heart breaks too easily, and I’m struggling to keep all the little pieces together to keep it beating and pumping blood, and doing the things hearts are supposed to do.

Isn’t there some kind of protective gear I can put on, to feel less?

2 comments:

Mud in the City said...

Gin
xx

allie said...

A feeling heart is a treasure.

I know of people who, after a broken romance or something similarly traumatic, have made a decision never to allow themselves to be hurt in that way again. And in so doing, have lived a kind of emotional shadow life of half-felt feelings.

Too big a price to pay, surely.

I think only God is able to bear the pain of human suffering: its just too much for us. Thats why He says "Give Me your burdens"

Maybe the thing is not to block off those feelings but to pass the weight of them on to Him?